I really tried not to think about her ... I really did... but it's hard not to think about someone, when every second song reminds me of her..
I was there, I tried to smile ... but inside I was broken..
all these imgages I have in my head, every day .. they're in the past .. they don't exist anymore.
I try to move on but it's so hard when you think about those great times when you were so happy and so sure about it ... I read those messages and diary entries I made and I don't know what happened, I don't know what I did wrong ...
But I know I have to move on and leave it behind because it will never happen and I have to accept it. I have to move on so I don't sit here everyday thinking "what if.." .. so that I can find someone new ... even if I know that I will never forget her...

just the time when I miss her... when I'm thinking about her and she doesn't even know ...
I read those messages and I know that she'll never be mine .. but my heart still hopes....

Was soll man machen, wenn dieser eine Mensch nicht aus dem Kopf geht? Wenn sie eigentlich nicht mehr dadrin sein sollte, es aber trotzdem noch ist?
All die Sachen, die sie vor einem Jahr geschrieben hat gehen nicht aus deinem Kopf und es tut weh zu wissen dass sie diese Sachen nicht mehr so meint ... sie vielleicht nie so gemeint hat ..
Wann war der Punkt in dem sie sich gegen dich entschieden hat? In dem sie entschieden hat, dass aus euch nichts werden kann? Du weißt nicht, was du machen sollst. Sie wird nie wissen, wie weh es getan hat... wie weh es immernoch tut....